Getting a Fresh Perspective

We had a hard afternoon today.   Bug had come home from school in a strange mood, and seemed more violent then usual.  Just like any day we tried to go on with the afternoon, and we were in the playroom.  I was on a phone call about school stuff when I heard Doo Doos crying.  I turned around and because she was crying Bug went up and kicked her in the mouth.  He was able to do that twice before I could get to her.  I hurried and hung up the phone and scooped up my baby girl horrified at what I had just happened.  He had never done anything close to that before.  Her little mouth was bleeding and I was so sad.   I had my husband's voice in my head telling me to be calm because I tend to freak out when I see my kids hurt.  It took just a minute and she was ok.  

She was not hurt very bad.  I went back downstairs to see Bug and all he was doing was lying on the floor crying as if he knew he had done something wrong.  Everything happened so fast, I didn't have a moment to discipline him or anything.  So I talked to him and just had to put him in that room for a time out.  I think it was more for me than him.  

On one hand, he has just hurt his sister for making noise, and on the other you know he is lashing out because he can't process the noise.  I wasn't sure what to do.  I decided to take the kids to the store to get a few things that we needed, and just to get out of the situation.  It was a surprisingly calm trip,  and when we got home I proceeded to make dinner which was pancakes.

That is when my fresh perspective came.  Bug really likes to help bake things, and he came in and started to help me put the ingredients in.  He was so calm and angelic.  I poured the oil in the measuring cup and he put his hand on and it waited for me, but I told him to put it in, and he did it so well!  It was truly a tender mercy.  It is moments like that which make it possible for me to keep going on a tough day.  I have had experiences like this over and over again and I know it is the Lord letting me know it is worth it.  

The picture above is our most recent family picture, and Bug's face in this reminds me of what an angel he is.